Something A Little More..

Sure the presents are nice..

and the food and traditions are wonderful

but nothing is more important then the time spent with family.

That's what it's all about.

You can dress up the holiday with fancy decorations and extravagant gifts but ultimately it doesn't matter.

Material things only last so long

So how did you spend your christmas??

Enjoying the gifts??
or

Enjoying family?

The best gift I recieved was the news that I'm going to be and aunt

AGAIN!!

This makes #7

I could not be more excited!

There is nothing in this world I love more then my

nieces & nephews.

& That's what it's about.

FAMILY

The most important thing.

Don't take it for granted.



Peeking At My Past

I was feeling a little sentimental today, so I pulled out my memory box [every girl has one]

Suddenly I was filled with memories that had temporarily left my mind.

My first Applebeer with Rhett

Countless Birthday cards from when I was little

2 years of letters from Jaxon

My Honor Society medal

Photobooth pictures

My Graduation cap/certificate

Old journals

Pictures and memories with Brock

My summer with Jordan.

&

Numerous Letters

You know, despite all the heartache and drama, I've lived a good life. It has been full of mistakes and learning, love and loss, but it has been oh so good.

& there isn't a moment or memory I'd give away.

Looking back I've learned that..

Time heals all wounds.

That the little things are actually the big things.

That family never fails.

That life throws us curve balls.

That picking the right friends is the most important decision you'll make in your adolescence.

& that the memories we make here on this earth are the only things we get to take with us.

My life has been full of love.

Maybe not the romantic kind.

But the kind that supports you through all of life's struggles.

The kind that answers the phone at 2 am when you just need to talk.

The kind that is my shoulder to cry on every single time my heart breaks.

The kind that lasts a lifetime.

My life is crazy & sometimes too much to handle

BUT

What a wonderful life it is.

I'm not happy because everything is perfect nor because everything went my way. But I'm happy because things have sucked and been hard but I'm 

 doing just fine.

I may not have ended up where I wanted, but I think I'm where I'm meant to be.

I want to thank the people of my past. You have shaped me into the person I am today. You taught me about life and showed me how to love.

And to the people of my future...

Hold on!

It's gonna be a ride.

& every moment will be beautiful.

The memories are just waiting to happen.

Consuming Me

I have found almost everything ever to be written about love to be true.

Shakespeare said,

"Journey's end in lovers meeting"

What an extraordinary thought.

Personally I've never experienced anything remotely close to that, but I'm more then willing to believe that Shakespeare had.

I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should.

I'm constantly amazed at it's shear power to alter and define our lives.

It was Shakespeare who also said,

"Love is Blind"

Now that is something I know to be true.

For some quite inexplicably

love fates

For others love is simply

Lost

But then of coarse love can also be found,

even just for a night.
But you should never settle.
Unless it is
Mad
Passionate
Extraordinary
Love
It's a waste of time.
There are too many mediocre things in life
Love,
should not be one of them.
& when you find that love
Hold on to it.
Opportunities like that are rare.
& we have to be vigilant in protecting them.
but most importantly..
for no reason at all,

Love Unconditionally

& you will find happiness.

I'm Not What I've Done. I'm What I've Overcome.

I have made many choices in my life.

Some had wonderful results;

Others, not so much.

I grew up in a country where I was given the freedom to make choices.

& God has given me the free will to choose for myself.

And every choice I've made 

whether good or bad;

Has taught me.

I've learned my strengths and my weaknesses.

I've learned that no matter what life throws my way,

I can handle it.

No fear.

I know I'll stumble.

I know I'll still face defeat.

But I can overcome anything.

Very few people know of the trials I've faced.

Even fewer can appreciate the hurt it took to face those trials.

 It's hard not to judge a book by it's cover

But I'm living proof as to why you shouldn't.

You may think you know me;

Funny thing is you don't even know the start.

The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss and have found their way out of the depths. These people have found an appreciation, a sensitivity and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen. 

-Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

What I've Overcome by Fireflight

Today I Vow..

   There's only so many times you can allow someone to let you down before you can't handle the disappointment anymore. When things change, people change & it doesn't mean you forget the past, it simply means you try to move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting things that weren't meant to be. There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing  everyone, trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up. You got to do what's right for you even if it hurts.
    I've come to realize now that when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive…because you are. And that pain you feel? That’s life. The confusion and fear? That’s there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better and that “something” is worth fighting for.

So as you make a vow to her today, I'm making a vow to myself.

I vow to keep fighting for the things I want most in this life, no matter how hard the fight might be.

I vow to never stop loving myself.
I vow go after every opportunity I'm given.

I vow to never stop believing in love.

 I vow to never settle for less then what I deserve.

&

I vow to live my life to the fullest.

 

Part of me will always love you.

My heart ached as I laid in bed, praying that time would stop and I wouldn't have to face the day.

But I recieved a soft subtle reassurance telling me...

[it's time to let go. it'll be okay.]

And it will.

Just breathe

 

Enough to Kill Me

I don't want a Cinderella story...

I don't even want a Twilight story...

All I want is....

My own story

My own.. Happy Ending.

'Tis the Season to be in love.

Kill me.

Every where I go, without fail, there are cute affectionate, adorable, cheesy couples.

And it seems like every time the holidays roll around it gets worse.

And after posting a FB status about this and getting 55 likes, it seems like I'm not the only one that notices this.

According to Greek Mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs, and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.

Well screw you Zeus.

Cause now I get a front row seat to watch every other mushy love story.

Ugh.

Couples in love have a penchant for display of affection. Their actions can draw stares, gaping mouths, and in some cases, intervention. Yet you have to admit that these cute couples, who are oblivious in love, teach the world a thing or two about nurturing relationships.

If you're like me and currently unattached, you know seeing their PDA makes you jealous and the thought crossed your mind..

 "I want a relationship like that"

Again thank you Zeus,

for testing my patience,

& making me continue my search.

"Aim high, but do not aim so high that you totally miss the target. What really matters is that he will love you, that he will respect you, that he will honor you, that he will be absolutely true to you, that he will give you the freedom of expression and let you fly in the development of your own talents. He is not going to be perfect, but if he is kind and thoughtful, if he knows how to work and earn a living, if he is honest and full of faith, the chances are you will not go wrong, that you will be immensely happy.”

― Gordon B. Hinckley