Anchor Me

It still amazes me how God knows exactly who to put in my life, 
and He knows exactly what I need to hear. 


Even though I'm frustrated and stressed to the max, 
I'm aware of the beautiful people that bless my life daily.
And i'm so thankful for their constant support and loving advice.


my life is in limbo right now.
stuck in a place i don't want to be.
and forced to make a decision i'm unprepared to make.


everyone knows i'm the most indecisive person on earth,
but come on, should it really be this hard?
shouldn't that gut feeling kick in and tell me what to do?
well it hasn't.


“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

[thank you sam]


but even though i have no idea what i'm going to do,
i'll be okay.
i'll be okay because i still have the one thing that humanity thrives on...


for those who need it just as much as me,

Whatever you do, hold on to hope!

  The tiniest thread will twist into an unbreakable cord. Let hope anchor you in the possibility, that this is NOT the end of your story, that change will bring you to peaceful shores

Everything's Okay - Lenka by tepsquared

Today Today, I Want To Run Away.

Welcome to life.
                unexpected.
                hard.
                frustating.
                unfair.
                terrifying.


Why is it so completely unfair. And why is it so hard to forgive and even harder to forget. I wanna forget last night. I want to go back to thinking that there are people out there that still fight for what they want most. I want to believe that my waiting hasn't been in vain, that there is someone out there that's waiting for me.


I'm not perfect. Far from..... But I'm trying. I want to be the best woman for my future husband, and I hope and pray that he is trying to be the best for me. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices. Or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That’s just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give. The rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase. The choices you make. And the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time.

And the rest of your life starts right now.



The Narrative - Eyes Closed by dayum

Lead Him Home

Love Finds You & Love Is Patient

^ All about a boy ^

Go figure. 

But he's not just any boy.

This is Jordan Ryan Burke we're talking about.

sweetest, most gentle, kind hearted, and amazing man I know.

&& guess what?!

ONE YEAR DOWN 

yep. today last year we said our goodbyes and i sent him to richmond, virginia. 
It amazes me how fast time has come and gone.


it hasn't always been easy but i've learned something about prayer....

Don’t just pray about what seems logical and possible. Pray HARD about the “impossible.” God will show you that NOTHING, nothing, nothing, nothing is impossible with Him. 
Ever. Period. End of story.

Keep working hard J. and i'll see your sweet face sooo soon!

All About Us - He Is We (Remix) by 3ME

Let It Play Out

A few rules: 


1.) Never stop thinking. This is so important. If someone ever says to you “you need to stop thinking so much,” call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupid people. Your mind is the most important thing you have, if you stop using it, it will atrophy.


2.) Stare into space blankly and don’t mentally punish yourself for doing it, even if it is for that split second.


3.) Don’t be afraid to talk about anything. You shouldn’t be afraid of reality. 

4.) You are all original. Every life experience is case sensitive and unique. Every time you wake up or quote someone else, you are becoming more you than anyone has ever been.


5.) Do pointless things. Don’t actively restrain or hide yourself from the redundant. 


6.) Stop rushing. Shut up and embrace the sound of silence. 


7.) Religion shouldn’t be taught, it should be found. No one should tell you what to believe except for you. 


8.) Talking to yourself is healthy. Is there anyone you have more in common with? 


9.) There is no such thing as time. The sun never sets or rises. Days and years don’t exist. There is only your life. 


10.) We will always be in a transitional phase. Look outside and know that everything will be replaced at some point. This existence is temporary. 


11.) It’s not half empty or half full. It’s half a glass. 


12.) Every now and then, you take something that you see everyday and try to see it in a different light. Renew its existance. 


13.) Everyone is a hypocrite. Get over it.  


14.) You will always succeed in trying. 


15.) We are all crazy. 


16.) We are all about as similar as we are different. 


17.) Ideas are about as valuable as people. 


22.) Numbers don’t have to go in order. 


18.) Words will always be just words. Love is just another four letter word, only the feeling is real. 


19.) Ask a child for advice. They may not know much, but they know what’s important. 


20.) Prove you’re alive. Do anything from dancing in the supermarket, to taking an impulse trip to another country. Remind the world you are still here. 


21.) Don’t take anything too seriously.

For just one second, look at your life and see how perfect it is. Stop looking for the next secret door that is going to lead you to your real life. This is it: there’s nothing else. It’s here and you’d better decide to enjoy it or you’re going to be miserable wherever you go, for the rest of your life, forever.

The Storm - Elenowen by Brite Revolution

Inconsistent Insanity

When it comes to wanting something really badly, I’ve never been a patient person.

 I want my degree, 

I want my career, 

I want my future.

 I don’t want to wait for it. 

I've also always liked to be in control of my life. 

I don’t know very many people that like to be out of control,

 but I know that I am certainly not one of them. 

BUT

Sometimes not being in control is the most beautiful thing in the world.

A lot has happened. And i can't tell you how nice it would be to be in control of the chaos in my life. it's been rough.

This week has been a lot of self reflection. 

Who i am.

       What i am doing.

  Where i am.

        Where i am going.

            Who is going with me.

Now the way i define happiness, is being the creator of your experience, choosing to take pleasure in what you have, right now, regardless of the circumstances, while being the best you that you can be. And i'm immensely happy...... i am. but some how i know there is more out there for me. i'm not sure what that something is... but it's out there.


I think i've learned that i have to let my guard down. At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So i can waste my life drawing lines, or i can live my life crossing them. 

i'm losing control and crossing the lines.

Since I Met You by joshkaymusic