She'll Never Slow Down

No day or night is exactly the same.

new places.

new people.

new adventures.

I live my life spontaneously.

no rules.

no premeditated plans.

simply, one moment at a time.

My life is not planned, and I have no set design for my future. But I'm living my life. A life that brings me all the joy in the world.

I never got a how-to-guide. I'm just winging it.

and although my life isn't perfect,

Its everything I desire.

school. work. social life.

it's crazy and chaotic

& exactly how i want it.

[everyday I thank God for a life worth fighting for]

don't forget to..

play the moments.

pause the memories.

stop the pain.

rewind & relive the happiness.

Love. Yourself. More.

Casey Nichelle Cook

According to wonderful google.

My name says that I am:

Inspiring but melodramatic.
 [i suppose]

Charismatic but impulsive.
[a good portion of the time]

Passionate but flighty.
[so i've been told]

Ambitious but stubborn.
[unbelievably true]

For those who know me probably agree with this.

Oh well. I pride myself on my imprefections and differences.

Being different

is one of the most

BEAUTIFUL

things on earth.

[embrace your "you"ness]

Who am i?

i am who i once was and who i have yet to become.
i am the things i've seen and done.
i am the healing and the heart break.
i am the joy and pain.
i am those around me and those who are no longer here.
i am more faith then fear.
i am leading not following.
i am on the pursuit of happiness
i am every mistake i've made
i am every ounce of love i've shared
i am a daughter, a sibling, an aunt, a student, a friend.
i am whatever you "think" i am.
but i am me.
& i will surprise you.

*remember with all your flaws and problems, there is no need to change anything. The only thing you need to change it the thought that you need changing.

Be Brave. Be Brave.

I'm not a back up plan and definately not a second choice.

So if you want me in your life, put me there.

 I shouldn’t have to fight for a spot.

But I did, for oh so long.

I fought for you.

& even though I'd do anything for you,

 I refuse to be apart of your game.

I refuse to let you define who I am

I refuse to give up what I want most

I finally repleaced my wishbone with a backbone.

I was brave.

I had forgotten how strong I was

Thank you for reminding me.

Stand up.

Stand tall.

Stand for something bigger than you.

& your heart will get bigger too

Expanding My Horizons...

My best friend has the BEST ideas.

This is my new logo for my blog.

so link it. show it off. post it on your blog. 

& share with the world.

Thank lovelies.

Here Is Good...

Sometimes

you need to step outside

 get some air

& remind yourself

 of who you are & who you want to be.

 

I have a bad tendency of getting caught up in things.

I worry to much about the little things.

& over analyze too much.

& it often takes a slap in the face from reality for me to realize that I've lost my direction.
I realized today that even though I lose myself too often, there is always something to bring me back and remind me of the wonderful life I live.

Sometimes my heart aches at how my life turned out...
in a good way.
 It doesn’t mean there haven’t been hardship’s, there have been.

But I’m here,
& here is good.

She Built Her Wings On The Way Down...

Too bad people don’t fall in love at the same pace, at the same time, for the same reasons, and it’s too bad that those emotions don’t move simultaneously. But instead each bit of madness moves at its own pace, one not dependent on the pace of anyone else. It isn’t like tandem skydiving, where you are connected as you fell, where you are forced to fall at the same rate and use the same parachute. Falling in love is a solo act. I know that, I just learned the hard way. You just jump and hope that your parachute will open. Sometimes, you look up and realize that you were falling by yourself, and the object of your desire is still on the plane, not interested in jumping and instead watching you descend into that scary place alone.

But you have to do it.

Take the chance.

Make the risk.

Leap.

& Maybe he won't follow

or

Maybe he'll surprise you.

Be brave. Be strong.
jump & build your wings.

Through Dark Clouds & Heart Ache

School
Work
Boys
Cars
Money
Stressors

You know what I'm taking about. One of those days, weeks or months that just kicks you around and knocks you down. Makes you feel like the whole world is against you.

But then by some miracle, light comes into your life.
Maybe a continuing burst or even just a glistening ray.
Today it's been my girls
[You know who you are]

A random call
A reconciliation
A plan for the weekend
A facebook shout out

Whatever it was, and whoever you are..
 you turned a rough 'n tough day into
one that had a little more light and a litte more love.

My friends remind me by their very steadfastness that
truth
beauty
&
 goodness
 exist in the world and that, no matter what, there are and always will be people loving people through think and thin.

Here's to you.

 The friends who have stayed beside me when I wasn't sure who I was or were I was going.
[Thank you]

She Who Dreams..

We're all apart of something.

 It's 

BIG

and 

Important

and 

Magical

But I dream of something more.
Something more powerful & captivating then anything else known to man.
Something that can't be described, only felt.
I dream of it often.
Too often.
I dream of...

Falling in Love

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.” 

- Bob Marley

I'm finally ready.
wasn't sure if I was
but I am.
Ready for...
          Long cuddle sessions.
          Hours of nothing.
          Holding hands.
          Messy hair and sweats.
          Meeting the family.
          PDA.
          Random conversations.
          Tolerating goofy quirks.
          Sharing everything from feelings to germs.
          Butterflies.
          Bragging to my people.
          Inside jokes.
          Shoulders to lean on and make numb.
          &
          The L word

Enough said.

 

It will cost you nothing to dream

and everything not to.

Something To Live By

I've learned that you can’t please everyone. So don’t even try it. It’s a waste of time trying to make everyone like you. Just be you. I've learned the hard way and in the end, some people are just so full of hate, that no matter what you say or do, they’ll always have something to say. They’ll never like you. 

So what?

Life goes on.

This inspired my 2012 motto.

Anthem Of The Underdog

"Be strong when you are weak

Be brave when you are scared

Be humble when you are victorious"

I underestimate myself.

It's hard living in provo, with soo many beautiful intelligent girls and still feeling like you have something more to offer then everyone else.

It's become one big competition.

But I honestly believe that the girls aren't as genuine as they used to be.

I'm not the prettiest girl, and I'm not going to spend hours photo-shopping pictures to look like I am. 

I'm not a rich little daddy's girl, I know how to work hard for things. 

I'm not the smartest girl, I still have so much to learn from others.

So I may not be perfect.

But I'm %100 me.

I'm stubborn

indecisive

tough

loud

hard headed

goofy

honest

loyal

full of love

& 

completely genuine.

There you have it. I'm just a girl who can admit her flaws, but knows her strengths. And regardless of how many amazing girls there are in this town, I still have a lot to offer.

 & I believe that.

It's not about being perfect,

It's about being better then you were the day before.

Year In Review

This last year has taught me that...

Sometimes it's not about the

Happy Ending....

 Sometimes it's about the story

[Thank you 2011]