A Beautiful Struggle.

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect him to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing. Love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it.


Love is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. We aren't taught how hard love is. How much work it takes. And how much of ourselves we have to put into it.

  

Love isn’t him calming you down when you yell. It’s him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn’t him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable. It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it’s not him caressing your hair and telling you that everything’s going to be alright. It’s him standing there, admitting he’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, and your heart into the palms of another person’s hand and said “here. Do what you will. Smash it into pieces. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it.”

   

Love makes us crazy. It makes us invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Because love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It’s about scaring the crap out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And ultimately we need that someone to show us that there is a world of difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole.

Life is a challenge, and so is Love. Things never come easy in life. But with love, you should go ahead and take the risk of getting hurt... because love is an amazing feeling and in the end, it’s all worth it.



Fine & Dandy.

 This is your LIFE.

Do what you love. & do it often

If you don't like something, CHANGE it. 

If you don't like your job, QUIT.

If you don't have enough time, turn OFF the tv.

If you are looking for the love of your life, STOP;

[they will be waiting for you when you start doing the things you love]

Stop over analyzing,
LIFE IS SIMPLE.

All emotions are Beautiful.

When you eat, APPRECIATE every last bite.

OPEN your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are UNITED in our differences.

Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them.

TRAVEL OFTEN;
getting lost will help you find yourself.

Some opportunities only come once,
SEIZE them.

Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them. 

So go out and start Creating.

Life is SHORT.

[Live your dream & wear your passion]

 

Moments.

Do you ever wonder

if we make moments

 in our lives, 

or

if the moments in our lives make us?

If you could go back and change one thing about your life,
would you?

And if you did, would that change make your life better? 

Or would that change ultimately break your heart?Or break the heart of another? 

Or would you choose an

 entirely different path? 

Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? 

One moment

that you've

 always wanted back.

 

Regret
 comes in all shapes and sizes.
Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason.

 Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.

 Some of us escape the pain of regret by
making the right choice.

Some of us have little time
 for regret because we're
looking forward to the
future.

Sometimes we have to fight
to come to terms with the past,
and sometimes we bury our
 regret by promising to
change your own ways.

But, our
 biggest
regrets are not for the things we did
 but
for the things we

 didn't do. 



Drawing the Line

Sometimes I wonder if anything is absolute anymore. Is there still
right and wrong,
good and bad,
truth and lies?
Or is everything negotiable?
Left to interpretation.
Gray?
Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.
But at the end of the day it's the choices you make that count and depict who you are as person.
No one will be there to tell you if they're right or wrong, but deep down you know, whether you can admit it to yourself or not.

I believe it's not about what you say, its about what you do. And if you don't like the person you've become then do something about it, because no one's gonna do it for you
Maybe it's wrong to expect so much from others  but it's only because we would be willing to do that much for them
Gray?
I don't think it exists.
Things are simply black & white.
Truth is still absolute. I believe that. Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.
Truth is absolute.

Waiting On Someday

Someday.. you'll meet a guy that sweeps you off your feet.

Someday.. you'll fall in love.

Someday.. you'll marry the man of your dreams.

Someday.. you'll live happily ever after.

Ya I've heard it all before. But what if someday isn't in the cards for me? What if there isn't a guy who likes me enough to stick around long enough to fall in love with me? What if I never get my someday? Don't get me wrong i'm in no rush to settle down and start having a family but I see everyone else finding someone to be with and it makes me jealous. I want someone who I can call mine. Someone who makes me weak in the knees. And I want someone who's crazy about me. I don't like to admit it but I'm your typical closet romantic. I believe in true love. I believe in love at first sight. I believe love conquers all. That doesn't mean there isn't going to be hard days or difficult things to deal with cause there will be but finding that one person that does it for you and knowing that person loves you back, just makes everything so much easier. So I'm patiently waiting for someday.... Someday, when someone will walk into my life and make me realize why it never worked with anyone else.



Live. Dream. Love.

Live Beautifully

Dream Passionately

Love Completely

You have one chance, one life and what you do with it is up to you.
I've spent the last couple weeks taking life one moment at a time. Not worrying about tomorrow. Forgetting about what others think. & living life for me, and no one else. For so long everything I've done was for someone else. 
Making others happy and meeting their expectations and dreams. But I'm done playing the part of perfect daughter, best friend, or girlfriend. I was just want to be me. & if you can't handle that, you don't deserve me.
I'm not worried about being set in my career. I'm not worried about being the coolest girl in utah valley. and I'm not worried about finding a husband and getting married right away. I just wanna live a life worth remembering.
 I wanna do the things that make me happy
Who knows where life will take me, the road is long and in the end the journey is the destination.