The Girl All The Bad Boys Want...

I often realize...

I find myself in the damnedest places.

That is the perfectly formulated way to describe my life.

This last week I got the random opportunity to go to Vegas with a company to work at the Interbike trade show.

& after 20 seconds of insane courage and winning a bet made by a co-worker, my trip ended with these boys.

I mean who gets the chance hang out and walk the strip with Maris Strombergs until 8 in the morning.

If you're not green with jealous rage that this point..

 let me tell you....

you should be.

I find myself in the damnedest places.. ;]

every experience is a life lesson, so...

  You are the books you read, 

the films you watch, 

the music you listen to,

 the people you meet,

 the dreams you have, 

the conversations you engage in.

 You are what you take from these. 

You are the sound of the ocean, the breath of fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner. 

You are a collection of every experience you have had in your life. 

You are every single day. 

So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence.

 Let the words run through your veins and let the colors fill your mind. 

take chances.

 risk looking like a fool.

& just go for it.

With Every Inch....

Learn to  the fool in you

 the one who feels too much,

 talks too much, 

takes too many chances,

 wins sometimes and loses often, 

lacks self control,

 loves and hates, 

hurts and gets hurt,

 promises and breaks promises,

 laughs and cries.

 It alone protects you against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom you also harbor and who would rob you of human aliveness, humility, and dignity.

04-natasha bedingfield-neon lights by mbOp

They Say Good Things Take Time..

You're interesting

and you're different

 and I like that 

I've needed that.

You're a breath of fresh air.

a moment of relief.

I'm giddy again.

Like the cute little girl on her first day of school.

I'm blushing.
all smiles.
&& giggles. 

                      I think i'm....

For that smile...
            that laugh...
                       those eyes...

It's that moment when you don't want to admit you're smitten.
&& tangled up in feelings 

Save My Heart by Dianne Joy Pico

One In A Million.

It’s a strange thing, 
how you can love somebody, 
how you can be all eaten up inside with needing them-
and they simply don’t need you.
That’s all there is to it.
and neither of you can do anything about it.
And they’ll be the same way with someone else,
and someone else will be the same way about you
and it goes on and on- 
this desperate need- 
and only once in a rare million do the same two people need each other.
That is why love is so difficult.
and yet that's why
              
                                      is so incredibly beautiful.

Leighton Meester ft. Garrett Hedlund - Give In To Me by Paula Silva

And So It Goes...

Honestly.

I don't know how it happened.

I'm still trying to make sense of it all.

It's been nearly 5 years since I met my best friend.

5 years of ups and downs.

drama and excitement.

adventures and memories.

all gone and meaningless in a blink of the eye.

and why?

because you are doing your own thing?

because suddenly I'm not one you want to spend time with?

because you can't take two minutes to call?

because suddenly it's not enough to be with your best friend?

why?

Why does our friendship suddenly mean nothing?

although, i shouldn't be surprised.

i've been dragging this friendship for quite awhile now.

 i've been the one putting in the effort.
the one trying to keep things together.

well....
i'm done.

i will no longer fight for those who don't fight for me.
why would i?
you sure didn't.

this isn't the first time and that's why i still have a glimmer of hope that someday in the near future we can get back to what we were. but for now, my heart hurts to think that the best of friends have become two strangers.

but lucky for me.. God blesses me daily, and
my heart excites that two strangers have become the best of friends.

An Epic Tale.

It went as fast as it came.

SUMMER

There is something about it that's so intoxicating.

Blue skies. Sun Rays. Sand.

Friends. Family. Summer love.

The good things in life.

if you are bored enough and have followed me.. 

you know about my bucket list

here is my update.

out of the 50 on my list

i completed 38.

now i didn't get to all of them, but the great thing about not going to school, is i have plenty of time to complete my list 

[& i fully intend to.]

In a recap, It has been an AMAZING summer.

I don't know what it does to me..but i love it.

I love the moments and the memories.

It's everything I live for.

&& the best buzz I'll EVER find

 [the anthem to my summer]

Sunday Night Slow Jams.

"It's true, and in a moment of startling clarity, I see it. 

It's very simple. 

This is why I'm so reluctant--- because on some basic, fundamental level, I recognize within me a deep-seated compulsion to be loved and cherished."

Lee Carr - The Way We Used To Be
ChrisBrown-SayGoodbye(1)
Beyoncé feat. R.Kelly - If I Were A Boy (un)Official Video
Song For The Broken Hearted (Lee Carr)
Monica - Angel of Mine
All My Life - K-Ci & JoJo
09 - Because Of You - NE-YO
Best Thing I Never Had
Chris Brown - With you
Rihanna - California King Bed Original

Sometimes all you need is a little music to say the words that can't be spoken.