Angel With A Shotgun

i've felt extremely alone the last little bit....
not just secluded but almost.... empty.....

there's not many people i can talk to and i don't think many actually care. but i'm starting to realize that God intended for this to happen.. i'm independent, stubborn, and think i can do everything on my own. but the truth is, i can't....

until today i wasn't sure just how much i could endure.. but now i've found with thanks to Him.... i'm stronger then i ever knew

i'm so thankful for His grace, love, and forgiveness...and his ability to pull me out of my hardest moments..out of the blue...

today i'm learning that standing alone doesn't mean i'm alone..
...that my strengths over power my weaknesses...
...that i'm stronger then anything life throws my way...

          ...that i'm an 

"trails are a compliment to the soul. either god is trying to streghten you for his purposed, or satan is trying to destroy you for his. in either case, it shows you are important and worth fighting for."

>>this song has been on repeat today.... tim/ne-yo you never let me down.

The Girl All The Bad Boys Want...

I often realize...

I find myself in the damnedest places.

That is the perfectly formulated way to describe my life.

This last week I got the random opportunity to go to Vegas with a company to work at the Interbike trade show.

& after 20 seconds of insane courage and winning a bet made by a co-worker, my trip ended with these boys.

I mean who gets the chance hang out and walk the strip with Maris Strombergs until 8 in the morning.

If you're not green with jealous rage that this point..

 let me tell you....

you should be.

I find myself in the damnedest places.. ;]

every experience is a life lesson, so...

  You are the books you read, 

the films you watch, 

the music you listen to,

 the people you meet,

 the dreams you have, 

the conversations you engage in.

 You are what you take from these. 

You are the sound of the ocean, the breath of fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner. 

You are a collection of every experience you have had in your life. 

You are every single day. 

So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence.

 Let the words run through your veins and let the colors fill your mind. 

take chances.

 risk looking like a fool.

& just go for it.

Anchor Me

It still amazes me how God knows exactly who to put in my life, 
and He knows exactly what I need to hear. 


Even though I'm frustrated and stressed to the max, 
I'm aware of the beautiful people that bless my life daily.
And i'm so thankful for their constant support and loving advice.


my life is in limbo right now.
stuck in a place i don't want to be.
and forced to make a decision i'm unprepared to make.


everyone knows i'm the most indecisive person on earth,
but come on, should it really be this hard?
shouldn't that gut feeling kick in and tell me what to do?
well it hasn't.


“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

[thank you sam]


but even though i have no idea what i'm going to do,
i'll be okay.
i'll be okay because i still have the one thing that humanity thrives on...


for those who need it just as much as me,

Whatever you do, hold on to hope!

  The tiniest thread will twist into an unbreakable cord. Let hope anchor you in the possibility, that this is NOT the end of your story, that change will bring you to peaceful shores

Everything's Okay - Lenka by tepsquared

Heaven Sent

There is a simplicity and beauty in the innocence of a child.

So naive to the world and the evil in it.

So pure and full of potential.

The whole idea of where this life came from and how it was brought into this world amazes me.

It's the closest thing to heaven we have.

June 21, 2012

5:58 pm

6 lbs 14 oz, 19 in.

Shelby Austyn Cook

"our little piece of heaven"

"Cinderella" by Chris Lee (Steven Curtis Chapman COVER) by clee1978

My Best Man

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

TRIGGER!

Nine years ago today my life was blessed with this sweet little ball of fur. I love this little man more then anything! He's my baby, and I'm so lucky to have the best dog as my best friend.

And come on how freaking cute is he. Thanks for always being there!

LOVE YOU BOY! 

Katy Perry - Wide Awake by Jellybeanx35

Gone To Soon.

The undefined span of life is a scary thing.

Some of us get to live a long fulfilling life.

Others leave this world far too soon.

and it's tragic when they do.

What would you say or do, 

knowing that you may not see someone again?

Would you be a little more kind?

Would you express how much you love them?

Would you appreciate their presence a little more?

We'll never know how long our time is..

But I think that's the point....

God doesn't tell us when or why because we have to learn to appreciate what's around us.

we have to learn to appreciate the people and the relationships.

Four young, amazing hearts were lost this weekend.

Sons. Brothers. Uncles. Friends.

It's a shame to see such great lives ended so soon.

Tanner Holt. 

Jordan Chapman.

Alex Metzger.

Colby Hafen.

My prayers go out to the families of these men, in hopes that they will be comforted in knowing God has something better in store for them.

JORDAN: Although we didn't get the opportunity to know eachother, I was blessed to talk with you and see a portion of the great person I know you are. And I hope that some day we'll get the chance to hang out like we planned.

You are missed.

look at those you love around you?

they are here!

enjoy them. cherish them. and express your love for them.

 Life is too short for half-hearted connections and meaningless run-throughs.

2 Soon by Jon Young

My Roots..

I would have to say, first of all she is my Mother

with a capital "M"

She's something sacred to me and I love her dearly.

.. 

Second, she's my best friend.

She's someone I can always talk to.

I can't count the many hours I've spent sitting with her after school or work just talking about my day. 

She's an amazing listener, and some how she understands just how I feel, and knows just what to say to make it all better.

Any trial that I've overcome or broken heart that's been healed, can always be traced back to her and her amazing advice and knowledge.

She's a woman of beauty and grace.

She's never been materialistic or vain, 

and yet some how she is the most beautiful woman I know.

She's patient and kind.

Despite all of my short-comings and all of my flaws,

she still loves me unconditionally and she shows that love daily. 

Unfortunately I'm not always that patient with her, but she is my example to be a little bit better everyday.

She is my miracle.

Not many people know or understand the trials she's been through.

And that's because you'll never see curse or whine about the trials life throws her.

When I was 12, she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer,

a cancer that has no survivors...

except my mom.

         

She's hand down the strongest woman I know.

She is my hero.

I don't know where I would be today if it wasn't for her.

I'm strongly convinced that the reason she's still here is to take care of and help me.

cause let me tell you...

I struggle!

Bless her heart for putting up with me for the last 20 years.

I'm so extremely nervous to become a mom and have kids,

but I know that if I can just be half the mom that my Mother is..

they'll be just fine.

Thank you Mom! Thank you for being incredible woman you are! I can't thank you enough for the love, support, and encouragement you've always given me! You are and forever will be my best friend, and

I'm so glad you're the woman I get to call Mom.

There aren't enough words to describe how much I love.

Thank you!

Any good I have in me is because of you!

I LOVE YOU!